Monday, October 17, 2005

good music in muddys


amon tobin I'd guess.

so. body, elbow, sore from climbing, running. trying to plan a trip to yosemite valley with ross, rachael, etc. we'll see. it may be a bit chilly in nov. for the southern boy. work is kindof interesting but I have learned from myself and others not to go into too much detail in z blogworld :-)

what can I say? I may work on my novel and/or poetry ms as I did yesterday. My insurance paid for my ambulance ride when I had food poisoning, over $900. Yay! No extra hassles, they just did it. The other bills may require some of the usual effort.

Looking forward to going to the de Young museum, esp. Jasper Johns.

that is all.

Friday, August 12, 2005

the view from muddy waters on church st

Blue skies in my hood

Sunday, August 07, 2005

kathy acker

a good intro to her life.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Colors walking home

A lovely wall in the Castro.

seen on valencia st.

saw this walking home from friends' house after watching empire strikes back again. "I'm not afraid."

On my way to work

a lovely view of Mission Delores spire

Monday, July 25, 2005

napalm and mobile blogging




the image on the bottom is a sideways view of a blogger picture blog. very exciting, mobile blog I mean. for the pictures in yer phone you must send now.

on the top we have the black light ball show, my piece Napalm Reading #1. It's a car radiator, modified in various ways, then set over a light box in a dark room.



Friday, July 22, 2005

my teacher's teacher

A great article on Kobun Roshi, the teacher of Tim McCarthy, my teacher, my lineage.

A Dharma talk on the teaching of Chan Master Yunmen

When I was living in Ohio, I had a dream about my Zen teacher's house, and a book about Chan Master Yunmen was in the dream. I told Tim and he said I could borrow the book, which I still have, years later. I have been reading it again, starting last night while feeling lonely or having a problem with my "self". This links points to a Dharma talk that seems very good, definitely pointing out Yunmen's distinctive style. This brings me back to my roots in Zen which were the koans of Zen Flesh Zen Bones. They made "sense" 20 years ago and have a "deeper meaning" today. They are the bomb.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Hemingway and eternity

Topic: The Old Man and the Nobel

In 1954, Ernest Hemingway (whose birthday we celebrate) received the Nobel Prize for Literature for The Old Man and the Sea. Rather than a lengthy discourse, we shall turn, instead, to the author’s own acceptance speech. [As the Laureate was unable to be present at the Nobel Banquet at the City Hall in Stockholm, December 10, 1954, the speech was read by John C. Cabot, United States Ambassador.]


Having no facility for speech-making and no command of oratory nor any domination of rhetoric, I wish to thank the administrators of the generosity of Alfred Nobel for this Prize.


No writer who knows the great writers who did not receive the Prize can accept it other than with humility. There is no need to list these writers. Everyone here may make his own list according to his knowledge and his conscience.


It would be impossible for me to ask the Ambassador of my country to read a speech in which a writer said all of the things which are in his heart. Things may not be immediately discernible in what a man writes, and in this sometimes he is fortunate; but eventually they are quite clear and by these and the degree of alchemy that he possesses he will endure or be forgotten.


Writing, at its best, is a lonely life. Organizations for writers palliate the writer's loneliness but I doubt if they improve his writing. He grows in public stature as he sheds his loneliness and often his work deteriorates. For he does his work alone and if he is a good enough writer he must face eternity, or the lack of it, each day.


For a true writer each book should be a new beginning where he tries again for something that is beyond attainment. He should always try for something that has never been done or that others have tried and failed. Then sometimes, with great luck, he will succeed.


How simple the writing of literature would be if it were only necessary to write in another way what has been well written. It is because we have had such great writers in the past that a writer is driven far out past where he can go, out to where no one can help him.


I have spoken too long for a writer. A writer should write what he has to say and not speak it. Again I thank you.

Friday, July 15, 2005

chinese general eats too much noodle and loses mind

A fun way to start the day.

chinese general loses mind

this is great. A great way to start the day. I did not know that the Chinese, in the military or otherwise, were thinking along these lines. Super.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

The Joy of Life

A great film about being queer, the beauty of San Francisco, suicide, and the Golden Gate Bridge.

For a good interview with the writer/director go here.

Thursday, June 30, 2005

my client and my conversations

A few long interesting calls today: first Baptist Health systems, then Russell Athletics, and finally Keane. The longest talks were Baptist Health and Keane and they were both asset management. I mostly listened which was good, I learned more and was able to integrate a lot of the things I heard and sound more confident and knowledgeable, which I am. Which is good.

I've been working in sales with Peregrine for almost 4 months. Not easy.

Monday, June 27, 2005

Saturday, June 18, 2005

help for proustians

This site has helped me get a grip on the novel.

In other news, I am linking this blog to Tribe which means someone might read it. Although some have found me through blogger since google is so well connected.

It's nice to spend time alone again. Listening to Discreet Music. I don't know if I could ever live with anyone, unless I had a nice studio, or they traveled a lot. But be careful what you wish for...

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

the man: my current fave director, Wong Kar Wei

Just saw his first film, As Tears Go By, very intense.

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Thursday, February 03, 2005

apophenia

I thought I'd blogged this before, but here she is, in all her glory, she is awesome...

Saturday, January 22, 2005

more in the novel, daydream nation

1-21-05
the day after the inauguration. Sitting in the back of the sprint store. Nice to be able to sit. Looks like i'll be here for a while. Some job security. I seem to be thinking about sex a lot, more than i thought, but i do like L., not just in a physical way? Or maybe not.

i can't eat that apple right now. Need water. Back to work.

As she read i would fuck her: various books, once the old testament, the torah, maybe genesis, later chapters. Said it was like a perfect male fantasy as I licked, fingered, sucked, and fucked. I felt left out: she never read aloud.

Waiting to see no exit,

now in this moment listening to fatboy slim's version of magic carpet ride. Tall skinny blonde made me a chocolate heart. Hell is...all you have to write about is your unhappy childhood. Horrors. Tomorrow i want to buy glitter and stars, but mainly i want to hang out with miss lenina crowne.

asian tattood goth goddess. What can we have and what can we avoid? I don't really like the christian or jewish bible. Kerosene. White chocolate heart of red gold. I saw her monday night and felt fat.

What are the other characters doing, and why? Good question. That will take some researchin'. Some searchin' for locations and motives.

Friday, January 21, 2005

the laughing gas

listening to black steel, tricky, on the 22, at night. Seems she blew me off on my cell today. I was pretty upset. I must like her. She is staying in oakland, for now, at least, staying with her sister who just had a baby. It felt like a paper cut on my eyes, reminded me of the endless bullshit with R. But maybe not, could be different.

How does all this relate to vr, nano, I dunno.

Staying out of relationships, in order to maintain that autonomy, for the story, the narrative, this language. To be authentic. An odd idea, extreme, yeah. Oh yeah. Where is the linearity, how do we find it?
Happily a member of the climbing gym/community, at least moreso, today. Climbing with stoners, wonderful friends, lovely backs all around. Muscles, talking to D., listening to Peter Gabriel, I don’t know how to stop.
As much as I liked being single, dating has a pull. I like someone once I get to know them, let them in. It’s nice, that closeness. Experimental film. Where in the system are we? What nanode? In the virtual wire, high guage, where is it?

Thursday, January 20, 2005

new idea for novel/blogs

well, here is my new idea. I want to start working on my novel again, and in order to do that I may have to cut back or stop writing in my livejournal blog. I dunno. So I decided to combine the two and also to post my novel progress in blogger and my experimental writing tribe. Three forums, opportunity for readers and feedback. Of course I will also put it in word. I want to write something tonight, but soon I will post a synopsis of the first 500 pp or so of this rough draft (who knows maybe I am starting another novel, I never know).

But first I will hotsynch my clie, before I forget.

so tonight I went to Dark Sparkle which is a block from my apt, Church and Market. Premier San Francisco Goth club. 80's, mostly, and 70's music. Nothing new. Lots of "costumes", corsets, leather, wonderful. Went by myself. Which is good. It works, for movies, restaurants, coffee shops, museums, and goth dance clubs. Rad. I danced. It was fun. It was beautiful. There were beautiful women and cute guys. Lovely. Some 80s throwback styles and shit I did not dig, but that is their deal. I guess the goth stuff is going back a ways too, maybe, but I was not part of that scene then so I wouldn't know.

A long, manic day. Physically, very active.

Keep in mind this is an uber rough draft. Am I insane for doing this? No one would dispute that. Things are not always as they appear. Is that a theme or what?

Saturday, January 15, 2005

three great bands

saw three great ones at the Independent tonight: the album leaf, rum diary, and roots of orchis.

roots had dj shadow with extra energy vibe.
rum diary had mix of joy division, curve etc.
album leaf was cool mix sometimes reminding me of old floyd teched up.

all in all a good show.

the album leaf

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

I swear I am going to post something here

because I will not abandon this blog completely. It is off the chart related to my tribe profile and Livejournal blog, but it could be relevant. Links, etc. I need a theme. Something to write about, like the Advanced theory blog. I need a theme! what could it be?

About Me

My photo
super-knowledgeable good writer, thinker, maker. likes working with people on doable, successful projects.